This is the moment when i realized that I should just stop chasing.
It came across my mind all of a sudden that all these while I've done nothing much other than torturing myself running alone looking for something that I should have let it come by itself.
Of course theres nothing wrong with running around and searching.
But it is much better leaving it to The Almighty to decide and lets just do the rest of the necessities a vice-regent ( khalifah ) to Allah swt should do first of all.

People came to me telling me to be strong and move on, thinking how vulnerable I might be after the decision I made. But yeah..nothing much. I wasn’t really contemplating over my decision and to my surprise, I was happy dealing with it. Day by day, I found myself another extra smiling wrinkle formed near my cheek line, sometimes when i sitting alone doing nothing i realize that till now i still thinking bout him and hoping for something unusual. I Warmed myself up with huggies and I realized I am loved by more than just one single soul. These are my beloved, my family and friends.

There was this old sayings that sounds really familiar,
It says that

“When God took something you loved,
He replaced it with something much better for you to love”

Cant really tell if that’s for real, not until I experienced it myself.
I mean, witnessed it and it happened to me anyways.

I am full of mistakes.
aku penuh dengan khilaf.
Sekarang masa untuk dicuci semua khilaf dan disental rakus semua kotoran dibuang jauh.
Semoga kuat lah badan yang halus lemah ini untuk mengharung deras.
Semoga kuat.Make the right decision. Never feel scared to leave or let go, Nadiah!! We never know what God have planned ahead for us. The good ones, of course. Never stop believing. InsyaAllah

precious day,i love her so much

The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love love someone else


Everyone in life is gonna hurt you, you just have to figure out which people are worth the pain

If two past lovers can remain friends, either they never were in love or they still are

doa tuk papa

Ya Allah… Seandainya telah engkau catatkan… Dia milikku tercipta buatku… Satukanlah hatinya dengan hatiku… Titipkanlah kebahagian antara kami…. agar kemesraan itu abadi… Dan ya Allah… ya tuhanku yang maha mengasihi… Seiringkanlah kami melayari hidup ini… Ketepian yang sejahtera dan abadi…

Tetapi ya Allah… Seandainya telah engkau takdirkan… dia bukan miliku… Bawalah ia jauh dari pandanganku… Luputkanlah ia dari ingatanku… Dan peliharalah aku dari kekecewaan….

Serta ya Allah ya tuhanku yang maha mengerti… Berikanlah aku kekuatan… Melontar bayangannya jauh ke dada langit… Hilang bersama senja nan merah… agar aku bahagia… Walaupun tanpa bersama dengannya…

Dan ya Allah yang tercinta… Gantillah yang telah hilang… Tumbuhkanlah kembali yang telah patah… Walaupun tidak sama dengan dirinya…

Ya Allah ya tuhanku… Pasrahkanlah aku dengan takdirmu… Sesungguhnya apa yang telah engkau takdirkan… Adalah yang terbaik buat ku… kerana Engkau maha mengetahui… Segala yang terbaik buat hamba Mu ini…

Ya Allah… Cukuplah engkau sahaja yang menjadi pemeliharaku… Di dunia dan di akhirat… Dengarlah rintihan dari hamba Mu yang daif ini… Jangan engkau biarkan aku sendirian… Di dunia ini mahupun di akhirat… Menjuruskan aku kearah kemaksiatan dan kemungkaran… Maka kurniakanlah aku seorang pasangan yang beriman… Supaya aku dan dia sama-sama dapat membina kesejahteraan hidup… Ke jalan yang Engkau redhai… dan kurniakanlah padaku keturunan yang soleh….

Amin.. Ya Rabbal A’lamin.

bila org dewasa buat keputusan..

sesungguhnya aku dlm dilema. Skunk ni baru aku paham situasi org dewasa bila buat keputusan. Well,we all have been at a point in our lives where we have to make a difficult decision, n we jz dun know how. Spending countless hour thinking about it, is totally make me sick and dizzy. petang td aku dpt panggilan dr satu company (ntah apa nama nya?) utk jawatan electrical tech. dekat area Masjid Jamek, giler apa aku xhappy? terasa diri ini agak berharga hahaha Alhamdulillah masuk ni dah dua kali aku dpt keje without interview tp yg sedih nye gaji tak padan dgn kos sara diri kat situ so aku terpaksa la tolak tawaran nya. Bukan xnk cuba tp aku xnk bila dah keje nnt aku still susah kn mak n dia, x ke bengong nama nya status dah keje tp masih mintak duit dgn mak sendiri termasuk la si Dia. Klu blh aku nk keje dlm masa yg sama x nyusahkn org lain malah siap leh bantu org lain lg. hah...camtu la bagus kan? tau pun...
ok2..dah melalut plak. main point aku skunk aku nk ada duit sendiri (ofcz la kene keje cari duit sndri kan..) sb bleh beli apa yg aku suka tp terasa nak sambung degree gak cuma xtau nak amek course apa.
Jadi aku senaraikan course2 yg mungkin aku amek bt masa ni :
- business management
- business administrative
- HR

How to Catch a Liar

Are you being lied to? Find out how you can tell!!

1. How is the person speaking?
Although a change in voice can be the tip-off to a lie, experts say that to be sure, you should also pay attention to a person's speech rate and breathing pattern -- if either speeds up or slows down, chances are you're not hearing the whole truth.

2. What is the person saying?
Liars tend to avoid exclusionary words like "but," "nor," "except," and "whereas," because they have trouble with complex thought processes. Liars are less likely to use the words "I," "me," and "mine." In their attempts to distance themselves psychologically from their tall tales, liars will tend to communicate using fewer personal pronouns.

3. Is his face giving it away? You may think disguising your true feelings is easily accomplished with the help of a smile, but the expressions that flash across your face will give away what you're really thinking -- whether you know it or not. Experts advise paying close attention to the micro-expressions that a face can't hide. These clues are often so difficult to detect that even trained experts have trouble discerning them.

4. How is the person smiling? A smile can sometimes mask a person's true feelings. Pay close attention to how a person smiles as well as other facial movements. You may be able to detect the emotions he or she is trying to hide -- such as fear, anger, and disgust. A true smile will incorporate both a person's lips and eyes.
5. Does the body language follow the story? It's more important to examine a person's entire demeanor, as there's no one feature that's apt to give away a liar. Honesty is characterized by features that are in sync with one another -- so besides posture, note the fit between face, body, voice, and speech.

6. Is your subject behaving uncharacteristically?
Experts believe changes in a person's baseline -- how she generally conducts herself -- are worthy of your attention. You should weigh rate of speech, tone of voice, posture, and hand gestures against what you know, along with the context of the situation.

7. Is the question simple or embarrassing?
It's normal for someone to look away when asked a difficult question. But when someone avoids your gaze when asked a simple question, you should be suspicious.

15 Things You Shouldn't Be Paying For

So much money and energy is wasted on things we could get for free. If you're into new, shiny things and collecting stuff, this is not for you. But if you want less clutter in your life and want to keep more of your money, then check out these 15 things you shouldn't be paying for.


Basic Computer Software -- Thinking of purchasing a new computer? Think twice before you fork over the funds for a bunch of extra software. There are some great alternatives to the name brand software programs. The most notable is Open Office, the open-source alternative to those other guys. It's completely free and files can be exported in compatible formats.

Your Credit Report -- You don't have to pay for your credit report. You could sign up for one of the free credit monitoring services online to get a quick look at your credit report. You just have to remember to cancel the service before the end of the free trial. Or you could do one better and visit www.annualcreditreport.com, the only truly free place to see all three of your credit reports for free once a year.

Cell Phone -- The service plan may be expensive, but the phone itself doesn't have to cost a thing. Most major carriers will give you a free phone, even a free smart phone, with a two-year contract.

Books -- There's a cool place in your town that's renting out books for free: the library. Remember that place? Stop by and put your favorite book on reserve. And if you don't feel like getting out, visit www.paperbackswap.com and find your books there (small shipping fees apply).

Water -- Besides the monthly utility bill, there's no reason to shell out $1 for every bottle of water you drink. Bottled water is so last decade anyway. We're over it, and into tap, filters, and reusable water bottles. It's cheaper for you and better for the environment.

Credit Card -- With as many credit cards as there are available on the market today, it's easy to avoid a credit card with an annual fee. Unless you're dead set on a particular perk that a fee card brings, skip the annual fee card and pocket that money yourself.

Debt Reduction Help -- Speaking of credit cards, if you're in over your head with credit card help, there are many free sources you can turn to for help with your debt. No one is going to be able to magically wipe away your debts, but there is help out there that will set you up on a debt reduction plan you can handle. Start with a visit to the National Foundation for Credit Counseling.

Basic Tax Preparation -- If your tax situation isn't that complicated, then you should probably be preparing your own tax return using one of the many free online services. It's now common for e-filing to be free as well with many services. You won't even need a stamp.

The News -- Leave it to a blogger to try and kill off traditional print. I'm not anti-newspaper. I just don't find them practical anymore. Skip the daily .50 cents and get your news online. And for you dedicated coupon clippers, you can get most of your Sunday coupons online now too.

Budgeting Tools -- There are many budgeting tools (both online and desktop) that offer up the service for free. Don't ask me how they do this, but who cares. If you're looking to reign in some of your spending, the good news is you can do it for free.

Pets -- This is a controversial one, I know. But there are likely many pets down at your local animal shelter that could use just as much love as the pure-bred types. There may be a small fee due to the shelter for shots and basic care, but you'll have your pet home without paying a mini-fortune.

Shipping -- If you like to buy online, you probably use coupons to get a percentage off of your purchase. Take your skills to the next level and look for coupons or promotion codes that offer free shipping. If in doubt, visit a site like

Checking Account -- Isn't it nice when a bank takes your money, lends it out to earn money, and then has the audacity to charge you for the service? What a joke. Checking should be free. If yours isn't free then move to one of the many banks that offers a checking account for free. And the same can be said for ATM fees, teller fees, and checks.

DVD Rentals -- Did you know that you can rent DVDs from RedBox locations for $1 a night? And better yet, if you use one of the coupon codes from www.insideredbox.com you can avoid the $1 charge. Free DVD rentals! Most libraries now have free DVD rental as well.

Exercise -- Skip the expensive gym memberships. Visit your local park for a walk or run. Do basic push-up and sit-up programs in your living room. Rent a workout DVD from the library. There are many free workout programs you can download online as well.

hari merah

1st day
sakit perut..jalan mcm sotong aduiiiihhh
dahaga..minum air lebih dr kebiasaan